Saturday, June 10, 2017

Far far away land

I always thought i love travelling.
Discovering new things, going to different places...

Now almost halfway across the home base
After days of going to great places...
To places that would have sparked by dying wick

How come i still feel empty?
How is it that i feel lost?
That I don't belong?

The need to be true to myself,
Requiring me to be more genuine
happiness needs to be true
Love needs be honest

Where is my heart at?
That I have to find out...

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Checking if this works

If i listed down all my what if thoughts, i would have written volumes of books on it already...

Sent from my iPhone

Friday, March 31, 2017

End of a Quarter

Today marks the last day of the first quarter of the year.  Yes guys, 3 months have passed this 2017!

I get that feeling that my next entry after this will be asking on what happened to the year.  I dont want this to happen.  I dont want to see myself looking at the ceiling wondering if i did anything great this 2017.

Every morning for the past weeks, as i go through my trip to the office, i have been asking myself on what can be the real purpose of my existence.  Did i get to already made a mark? to the people around me or the people i interact and engage with?

I want to say to myself that "you're doing great" but am I?

I dunno.  But i hope this is not yet it.. It cannot be just this. 

Saturday, February 25, 2017

Unplanned House Arrest and The Climb

On to the second month of the year and... an unplanned house arrest for a week, 3 trips to the emergency room and an overnight stay in a deluxe room of a hospital...

I can say that this week was a rollercoaster ride of emotions, physical struggle, and mental challenge.

The flu virus i was infected with did a hell of an infection.  I don't remember being this sick. I got scared especially with guilt of years and years of taking my body for granted.  I feel this was my body's way of warning and reminding me of my real age...

Vitamins, exercise, correct diet, water intake.  repeat.  2017 will indeed be a year for this.  I will be healthier.  I will loose more weight.  I will meditate and take my Yoga classes seriously.  I will spend a week in Cambodia for quiet time.  I intend to be better this year, physically, spiritually, and mentally.

I will appreciate what i have.  I will be more positive and forget the sad and bad 2016.  I will constantly remind myself to better and better everyday.  I will dig into my past and try to remember my self from 8 years ago -   THE CLIMB days when i would sing to Miley's song with all my heart and soul and fully believe in it.

Universe, i need your energy.