The question that you would be asked during the last or the first few days of the year:
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
Monday, October 10, 2016
Sinusubukan ko naman
na harapin and katotohanan
na lunukin and sakit
dulot ng karanasang puno ng pait
Pinaninindigan ko naman
na igalaw ang mga kalamnan
na bigyang buhay
katawang pagod at lupaypay
Pero paano sa mundong ito
sa araw araw na buhay ko
kawalan ng lunas sa damdamin
at and pag-asa na matatawag na akin
Wala na, di na kita maramdaman...
Wednesday, July 20, 2016
"Ever wonder why other people you do not know are called strangers? Its because everyone is strange in their own ways, you deem other people as stranger because you feel they are weirder than you..."
Just one of the many "intellectual conversations I had with my college buddy, Kei,
When i try to look back into my life and the friends i have had who made me change how I saw life then, i realize how much I do not know. I realize how dumb i was compared to those friends who at the same age as me, have come to understand this so called life, in a deeper way.
So why did I want to write about strangers and friends? Its actually because of this new series in Netflix. The past weeks, i got hooked in a series over Netflix when my daughter made me watch an episode of Pretty Little Liars, and it did not take me too long to actually skipped over the season where my daughter was and I was ahead of her bookmark.
Last Sunday night as we waited for our Chinese take out, i came across this nicely done 80's theme poster in Netflix and i clicked on it thinking it was a movie. I did not want to get hooked again in another series as i cannot anymore afford late night watching for the next few weeks (took me 3 weeks to finish PLL's 6 seasons). I got hooked to the first few minutes.... and the next 12 hours, i finished the whole season... And I love it! Can't wait for Season 2!
So this group of 12year-old friends, Will, Mike, Lucas and Dustin, typical 80's kids, have gone through more than other kids their age. From 1980's middle school bullying, alien abduction, mutant friends with superpowers, etc.. and all happened in a span of 1 week. But i will bet the 7 days of their life would somehow define what they will be in the future.
Which brings me back to my initial thought of strange vs. strangers, and how dumb i was when i was younger. I'm strange and I love it. I like being weird and I do not care what other people say. I was bullied in a way back in elementary and during then, it may have seemed like I was weak, but it made me stronger today. It made me stand up again and prove everyone I am better.
Ok, this whole entry is strange. My brain flow is just not for everyone to understand write now. And I don't want to spend a few more minutes to redo this whole thing.
Monday, April 4, 2016
Its a Monday and I am staying home today.
I am weak and my stomach is unsettled with both bacteria and mixed emotions rolling altogether inside of me.
Mediocrity. In a world full of this, how can one live and let live without aiming to be better than the average?
I am frustrated. I try to aim for excellence. And yet, i get caught up with the pace of everyone else around me causing be heart break and disappointment.
Maybe its because i am too, full of mediocrity.
I am no better than everyone else. Must. Remember. This.