Wednesday, May 16, 2007

All Day sickness

Why I can't bring myself to smile at this very minute:

1. morning sickness turned to "all-day sickness" - I wonder why they had to call it "morning sickness" when in fact it can happen anytime of the day Well it can even be an "all day sickness"! Its happening to me and for some reason, the "sickness" is getting worse by the minute...

2. the numerous calls from applicants - the new number given to us was assigned to the HR dept before we transferred here. And seems they have given out their business cards to a lot of people already. I get 20-30 calls either day asking for a schedule, or inquiring about requirements or just merely asking for vacnacies. I cannot be patient with all that 20-30 calls and just smile as I relay the trunkline number! well, sorry to those i almost shouted to today.

3. inability to eat - I cannot eat! I just throw everything out! or at least I think I will. I bought some rice and chicken feet from Henlin only to throw it away after 2 bites. I feel like the food stays on my throat. the stomach is just saying "NO" to anything right now.

4. the one hundred and one things on my to-do-list - which normally can be done in 2 days, but is now taking me forever to finish! I am just not in the mood to work! In fact, I am close to announcing to the world that I dont wanna work anymore!. Today, I had to drag my dizzy head and upset stomach to work toay. Why? because I had to!!

5. the feeling that nobody cares - like i told my husband, i will expect a lot from him during this whole experience. If there's anybody who should care, its him! but he never even called to say hello. I know he's busy, but i just need him right now.

I'm going to cry now. (as if!)

Friday, May 11, 2007

the new mommy --- again!

According to my PW account:
"This is day number 35 and you're 5 weeks pregnant!You have 245 days or 35 weeks left, and are 12.5% of the way there.Baby's age since conception is 21 days or 3 weeks. You are due on 1/10/2008.

Yes I am going to be a mom. 12.5% on it!

This pregnancy will definitely be different from my first one. And i have several reasons to why:
1. "legally" made - i am married. No monkey business involved. purely marital.
2. I'm working - unlike my first pregnancy (ada in the belly), i was on AWOL and just stayed home. Spent all the time I can spend on thinking. Just thinking. Nothing else to do back then. This time, i have to deal with going to work everyday and do more thinking.
3. I actually have a partner - i have a husband. I have a partner!. Ada's Dad never showed his face during the entire time of my pregnancy. Though my Pop was there for me, i was just too ashamed to ask anything from him. Now with Kyan around, i am hoping he could help me out. Like maybe buy food for me or something :-)
4. Physically, i'm different, weaker - i've been feeling pains all over my body for the past months. I just hope this won't be of any effect to my pregnancy. But for sure, this is really going to be hard on me.

There are other reasons but my stomach is stopping me from thinking. I'm hungry and I need, yes NEED, to eat. I could easily just pass on luch and eat later but now, i just can't. I feel guity.

And so, lunch time it is...

Thursday, May 10, 2007

the misis life journal

And so i start another blog page...
this time as the wife...
still working...
still "bagging" headaches...
still doing what i feel like doing...or at least i try
but now as mrs punongbayan...

i'll try my best to compare and contrast,
the life as ana mamangun versus ana m. PB

by the way, PB= PunongBayan