Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Part of the puzzle missing

I can laugh, I can smile. But somehow, it just feels incomplete. Like a part of big puzzle missing. There's a certain numbness in my heart that i try so much to re-activate but it just wont cooperate.

I am missing my Dad so much. Its almost 40 days but it feels like 40 years. I cannot help but still shed a tear every time i think of him being gone. My husband said i should focus on the bright side, but for now, its just too dark...

I live. And still love. But somehow, that part meant for my Dad still bleeds.

I know i should be ok someday. I know i will be fine soon. But for now, I will just let it bleed, until it drains to leave me with happy thought and fun memories.

Its still pain for now.