Sunday, May 25, 2014

Unexpected Thorns

I can take bad things at work
I can handle stress from last minute changes
I can go through a bad to worst day
But this feeling that i have now, i never prepped for this.
That feeling that you start counting the good things you've been giving and yet you get not a thank you or a pat in the back but a big slap to your face. And from someone you never get tired of giving to. 

This is the sort of pain i never expected nor prepared for.

Monday, May 5, 2014

That Certain Sadness

I try to be happy.  God knows I do.  I always remind myself of the blessings we have been receiving as a family.  And everyday i am thankful.

But then, there is that part of me that cannot be forgotten.  And that unforgettable part is just too effing sad.  I might have to dig into it with some professional help already.

I cant get it out of my heart.  Its just too heavy.

It usually goes away.  I usually get to control it after a few days of depression.  Im just on my 3rd day after that faithful Saturday argument that triggered the outpouring of too much emotions.

Now, i just need to get myself together, then Again.