Saturday, September 19, 2015

Expressions and Evolutions

The other day, I met with a colleague based from our HQ and I was surprised when he mentioned this blog.  I was actually a bit embarrassed as I did a mental of the past entries I have been putting here.  As I told him, this was more of an outlet for me since somehow, i never really intended for anyone else to read it but my digital and blogger friends.

It then came to me.  How social media evolved since I started this blog and how much I evolved as well in terms of breathing out and writing as an outlet.  Back when I started, there were only a few of us in FB, or in twitter.  It was not as powerful as it is now. Livejournal, Multiply, Blogspot was the way to go. 

The main objective was to express myself.  Of words I may not have the guts to say out loud.  Of emotions I had a heard time of expressing.  Of dreams I wanted to share to myself.  I needed a channel to shout without being too noisy.  And to cry without the tears.  To just express whatever it is. 

Thinking about it now, this blog was my imaginary friend.   A friend who backed me up and argued with me as well.  Ok so I'm kinda sounding like a complete psycho now.  Maybe I am.

Anyway, this kind of expression also helped me be more structured. Helped me a lot in the life I have now.  Yes, I learned from the movie "Finding Forrester" that you write first with your heart, then second draft is with your head.  Somehow, this channel made me realize that whatever it is in my head, sometimes, it does make sense in a structured, story-telling, kinda way.  I can actually write.

Then there is my life, mostly spent at work and my lovely family. The path I took is a complex one. The more i understand, the more i feel i know so little. Figuring out the complexities made me feel how small I was in this world.  As complex as it may be, I am loving it, most of the time.  

Ok so after going through the write up above, I take it back.  Im not so structured after all.  As a disclaimer though, no second draft for this entry.  Only one and written with my heart. Funny thing is the topic I really wanted to write about, I did not even get to it. 

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